Today Sucked.

I dont know if I ever want to set foot in the salon again.

Reflection

I know that it has been too long since Ive logged in and wrote about our life here in Dallas.  But tonight I dont want to talk about right now.  I want to talk about the past.  Ive been so morose recently that maybe typing it out will allow me to get past everything I am feeling.  SO here it goes.

When I was 16 years old I discovered pop punk, punk, emo, screamo, and a lot of other genres of music.  Good Charlotte, Matchbook Romance, AFI, Cute is what we aim for, Blink 182, and Hawthorne Heights truly understood my angst.  Yet there was nothing at home to be angsty about... And that was enough to be angsty about.  I didnt have a boyfriend, I was a weirdo, and I was the DUFF of my friends.  (Designated Ugly Fat Friend)  I was nice, blonde, and an outcast.  I wanted to know about the heartbreak they were singing about.  I had crushes but I was so scared to talk to boys.  SPOILER ALERT I didnt even have my first kiss till I was 17.

There were other things to be worried about.  I was bullied.  The mean girls hated me and I had no idea why.  I would get notes in my locker that said horrific awful things.  They threatened my life.  I wanted to die.  Why?!  Why did they have to be mean?  I would cry at night.  I would lay on the floor of my bedroom and stare at the glow in the dark stars on my ceiling and blast "Hold On" by Good Charlotte.  It was the only thing that kept me from taking a flying leap into destroying myself.  I would repeat these lyrics to myself...
"This pain you cannot bear

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on, if you feel like letting go
Hold on, it gets better than you know

Your days, you say they're way too long
And your nights, you can't sleep at all
Hold on
And you're not sure what you're waiting for
But you don't want to know more
You're not sure what you're looking for
But you don't want to know more"

I even had them printed out and hanging in my locker.  

Fast forward to senior year.  I had a job at Hot Topic and I loved it. I had a few good friends.  I drove a Mustang.  I started dating and things got so weird.  I liked this guy in my AP Gov class a lot and I found out he was kind of into me too.  But high school sucks and his friends didnt like me so we were only a thing for a few minutes.  His stupid friends were sending my awful disgusting texts and it hurt so bad.  And then that spring break he popped back up on my radar.  We spend one long night talking out at the river.  I still sometimes think back to that talk... And the talks weve had since.  We were always better as friends but sometimes you wonder what if.  And then the guy I had been friends with for two years asked (and who I had a BIG crush on) asked me to prom.  And he ruined one of my favorite songs in the process.  I wouldnt realize that till later on.  We went to prom and it was great.  I dont remember much of the dance.  I remember the talk we had after.  I went to sleep that night on cloud 9.  I woke up the next morning and suddenly it was graduation.  It came and went.  Nothing to really talk about there.  I walked with my best friend and we went to the all night party.  

That summer is a whole other blog post.  In fact each of those events are worthy of their own post...

Thinking about Jack

Weve had Jack for a long time now.  He has moved with us 4 times and will continue to move with us.  He was adopted, returned to the shelter, and then adopted by me.  He has been through a foster dog and then us rescuing Moonshine at the start of Spring.  He has sneaked out of the house once or twice and gone on his own adventures.  I think its time for me to start putting his stories down.  I will be starting a new blog just for him.  I cant wait to go on that adventure with him!

XOXO Jordiddley

Catching up

Life has been so crazy. I feel like I never have time for anything. As I'm writing this post I'm realizing I should be asleep but as usual I can't.
We love Dallas! Payne likes his job with Vivint and I live my job at the salon in Fate, TX. Jack loves being annoying as usual!
My brother Dillon is on a mission in Ohio and just hit his year mark. I can't believe it's been a year! Holy Cow!

I know...

Since the move and finding not one but two jobs i have been slacking on keeping up with the White's.  BUT I am looking forward to this weekend.  We are off to North Carolina to go see Paynes family!  I am incredibly excited!  And then on August 1st I am starting the Whole30 program.
I think it will be a good choice for me because its more about what you are putting into your body and portions versus counting calories.  Hoping maybe a few of my friends will do it with me and it will be a journey for all of us.  I know Payne will be doing it for two meals a day because Im not buying anymore junk for our house.  Im done with all the snacking and what not.

Jambalaya, Tornadoes, and all things Spring!

I love the weather here in Texas.  Its been warm and humid and DELIGHTFUL!  But then BAM!  We're in a down poor and the Tornado sirens are going off.  (If you dont know what I mean heres a picture of what they look like...)

Apparently a funnel cloud touched down in North Dallas and that caused all the action.  BUT the best part I haven't even gotten to!  The best part was while all the action is going on I'm at Target getting some groceries!  I was getting ready to walk out of the store when one of the Team Leads stopped me and said he couldn't let me leave the store.  At first I thought he was accusing me of something so I got all defensive.  Then he realized what I was thinking and was all No No its because theres a tornado warning and they want everyone to stay inside until the warning passes.  So for 15 minutes we hung around the back of target in the furniture area.  Once it passed we all joyfully left to go our separate ways.  

This is where the story gets funny... The reason I was at Target was because I was getting things to make Jambalaya.  You want to know why I want to make jambalaya?  Because two weeks ago we were talking about kielbasa sausage and I purchased some but it was a special kind and couldn't use it like I normally would because it had special flavors.  So I was sitting at work today BORED OUT OF MY MIND and thought I should Google easy jambalaya recipes.  Well I'm not one for sticking to recipes but here is a link to the one I based mine off of.

http://allrecipes.com/recipe/easy-cajun-jambalaya/

I didn't use chicken, doubled the amount of sausage, didn't use salt, and made this Payne's favorite thing in the world to eat.  Seriously.  

Mom, If you're reading this, MAKE IT!  Totally worth the try.  (And I put the link on here and made sure it went to the right place!)

Here's a picture of the finished product.

YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Now what I really want to talk about...

I get asked a lot of times at work where I buy my clothes and why I get such great deals.  Well I am a bargain queen!  I love a good sale and pay attention to when stores are having specials.  So I decided to start posting outfits and where I get everything in the picture.  Remember: Things I buy are on sale and are on clearance.  Or they come from Ross and TJ Maxx.  Theres no guarantee that you can find them.  But you can definitely go searching for your own ideas!

So here is outfit number 1.  The one that started this mess!

I'll start by saying this.  Im a curvy girl and I have a modesty thing.  Like I am super modest.  Anyways...

The dress: Lane Bryant, Clearance for $45.99 (originally $68) but clearance was an additional 50% off taking it down to $23.00 but I also had 30% off my entire purchase so that brought my final total down to $16.00!  (The belt came with the dress!  SCORE!)

The boots: www.JustFab.com , if you sign up for their website your first purchase is $20.00 so these boots were only $20.00

The scarf: Dots. the store is closing so everything is 30% off.  The scarf was originally $7.99 but with 30% off I got it for $5.60!!!

The Leggings: Old Navy, If you are an Old Navy card holder the offer events called Stuff and Save.  Basically what it means is whatever you can "stuff" in a tote bag they will give you 30% off.  BUT ONLY if you are a card holder.  So the leggings were originally $10.  I got them for $7.

Sunglasses: Gap, Clearance for a $1.50.  

And my outfit comes to a total of $50.  How sweet is that?!?!?!

Heres a few tips for curvy girls.  

These are my go to stores

*Deb

*Lane Bryant

*Torrid

*Maurices

*Dots

*Ross

Next, everything eventually goes on sale.  Torrid and Lane Bryant always have some kind of sale going on.  Sign up for their emails because they send out their sales all the time.  AND ALWAYS check the store before you buy online.  Sometimes the stores will mark things down but on the website you will still pay full price.  Be vigilant.  It pays off!  Until my next outfit! 

XOXO,

Jordan