I lost track of the days...

Then I realized that it just doesn't matter.  You know why?  Because I'm still here!  I'm still doing this blog.  I don't know who reads it and that DOESN'T matter.  

Lets review the last week. 
Last Saturday Payne left to drive to Texas.  I was emotionally distraught and SUPER sick.  You see I had this gross infection on the inside of my thigh that made me feel so sick.  
Last Sunday I went to church for the SECOND time since Payne and I started dating, then got engaged, then got married...  It was so weird but slightly liberating.  I went up to Salt Lake with my sister in laws to grandmas house and we had a lovely dinner and chat.  
Last Monday I went to work and only worked like 5 hours because we were so dead.  I went home, got into bed, and bawled because I missed my Honey Bear so much!  
Tuesday I went to Lehi to visit Adrienne and have a girls day... Can I just say how cold it was?!  YUCK!
Wednesday I worked until 11pm.  Surprise... My tire went flat on the freeway and I had the nicest Highway Patrolman change it for me.  It was freezing.  Counting my many blessings
Thursday I worked maybe 2 hours before I went home sick.  I was in bed by 6:30 and out cold for the night.  I don't remember the last time that happened.  With all the stress of Payne leaving and me trying to figure out life I haven't been sleeping well.  
Friday I awoke early to go run some errands and get the most delicious breakfast burrito in Utah.  BETOS!  Kid you not!  The next time your in Orem go!  Don't think about it!  JUST GO!  Then I went to work and worked 11 hours.  I was ready to go home!  
Today I woke up and took the black car into Firestone to get the alignment done.  It only took 2 hours to do so while I was bored I was texting Payne and we were discussing the ICE STORM IN DALLAS!  Apparently its really bad.  Then I went home and cleaned the bathroom.  Then I got into the care and drove to work (in Lindon) and it took me 45 hours to get there!  Do you want to know why?!  Because the roads were icy and snowy and people lack the patience to drive in the snow.  Ugh!  But I made it to work. And that's where I am right now.  Sitting at my desk writing this blog post instead of doing my job because its ridiculously slow and I have nothing to do.  

But heres the plan for next week...
Sunday: Go to church and then pack the kitchen
Monday: Clean the rest of our bedroom and start stacking boxes then go to work
Tuesday: Laundry and plan out clothes for the next 2 weeks.  Do more packing and getting rid of useless things.  This is also my day off so I can enjoy it for a little while too.
Wednesday:  Clean off bookshelves and pack them up.  Go to work.
Thursday:  Pack all the living room except for necessary objects.  Go to work
Friday: Laugh because none of this has actually been done.  Go to work.
Saturday: Go to work and then have a fun girls night!

Friday sounds like a blast!

XOXO ~ Jord

To My Clients

I am taking appointments in UTAH for the week of DECEMBER 15th - 20th. Those appointments will be $40 for a Color and Haircut. This is the last week I will be taking appointments till February. Thank you all for being amazing clients!!!

Fancy Cranberry Sauce

What you will need:
1 Bag of Cranberries
1 Cup Ginger Ale
1 Orange
1 Cup Brown Sugar
A dash of Cinnamon


What you do:
In a sauce pan you squeeze the orange out until youve gotten all the juices out.  Mix in the brown sugar, ginger ale, and cranberries.  Once it gets boiling and bubbling you add your dash of cinnamon.  once the berries start to pop and burst youre ready to strain the juice. 

Take a strainer

(this is what mine looks like)


and hold it over another sauce pan.  Dump the contents from the first sauce pan into the strainer.  All the juice will be in the second sauce pan.  With a spoon mash the cranberries until all you have left is the skins of the cranberries.  Slowly lift up the strainer up and scrape the bottom of it with the spoon.  (the stuff youre scraping off the bottom of the strainer will look like Jelly.  Mix it in with the sauce in the second pan.

TADAH!  You have the most delicious cranberry sauce ever!

Binders for Emergency Prepardness

Hello!  I know that I didn't give a very detailed list of the things that you can put in your "Important Document Binder".  There is a couple of reasons but the biggest one is because there's so many different ways to do it.  But I will give you a list (in order) of how I made mine. 




When you open up the binder this is what you will see...

EMERGENCY PHONE NUMBER SHEET

• A box with our address and phone numbers
• A box with “essential” info for every member of our family (name, DOB, allergies)
• A box that says: “If you are unsure who to call and it is an emergency, dial 911!
• A box with phone numbers to all our insurance companies along with the insurance policy numbers (car, life, health etc)
• A box with other important emergency numbers (poison control, 24 hr nurse line, gas company, plummer, etc)
• A box with our doctor’s phone numbers.
• Husband’s family’s numbers (parents, siblings, grandparents)
• My family’s numbers
• Local friend’s numbers
• Non-local friend’s numbers
• Other important numbers

The next page will have the FAMILY EVACUATION PLAN

• If you were at the meeting I presented the binders you would have received an example of this to hopefully create your own.  If you were not there I will include all the links that I pulled all the information from.  

The Next thing I would include is a CURRENT FAMILY PICTURE.  

This is useful because if a child goes missing you will have current pictures of them and it will also work as proof that you are in fact the child's parent.

Now from here I used dividers to break the folder up into sections so that I was even more organized.  

My first section was FINANCIAL INFORMATION

• In this section I have all of our account information and credit card information (numbers, phone numbers, etc.)    This is also when I keep a copy of any loans we have (student loans, car loans, mortgages, etc.)

The next section is IDENTIFICATION INFORMATION

• In this section I put our birth cetificates, social security cards, passports, and marriage license.  The blog that I originally pulled all this information from strongly suggested having a finger print kit for each family member.

The next section is LICENSES AND OTHER IMPORTANT DOCUMENTS

• In this section I have the titles to our cars, any licensing we have with the state (we have burglary alarm permits and my cosmetology licenses), and medical documents that are important (I have a copy of my claim for my surgery).  

The next section is RELIGIOUS DOCUMENTS

• In this section I put our Patriarchal blessings, any special blessings that we've saved, temple marriage certificate, and any other religious documents.

The final section is PETS

• Not everyone has pets right now so you can really have free reign with this section.  We have a cat and so we put his adoption records, shot records, vaccine records, and all health check ups in this section.  This is important if you have a dog as well in case there is a dog bite or if you are moving somewhere that has pet restrictions.  

Now I got all the information for this binder from:  http://www.yourownhomestore.com/survival-kit-series-week-23-important-documents/

This is a great blog to get information on having a food storage and a 72 hour kit.  

Day 12/418

I am not doing so great.  We have a lot going on in our personal lives that is really starting to wear on me.  So enter the Dr. Pepper.  I know its not healthy and I know I sound like I'm making excuses when I say "well its better than doing _____(fill in the blank)____"  And I guess in some ways I am.  But I need and MUST do better if I want to feel better.  So I'm back on the wagon... I am not going to beat myself up about it.  I am simply going to recognize that its a sign of weakness that I need to over come with lots of practice.  Its also helpful that I am reconnecting with old friends (aka Mandy) and spending time with people who care about me (Adrienne, Kelsie, Dan, Melissa, and Payne).  

BUT silver lining...

I found something for breakfast that I LOVE!!!

Especially this flavor with a splash of Tabasco. 

I add a slice of this bread toasted with a smidgen of butter.  

If you get a chance test these things out YUMMMO!

Day 412 or Day 6

I caved.  I had a Dr Pepper.  I'm not going to beat myself up about it.  But I am going to be honest about it.  Adrienne and me went to Sonic to go get ice cream and she wanted a Diet Dr Pepper.  So I (out of habit) ordered me one.  I didn't realize how habitual it really was for me.  So I drank it and it was DELICIOUS!  But I realized something about it.  I can have it on occasion.  It just cant be a normal thing everyday all day for me.  Sitting here right now I can feel my heart racing a little more than I would like it to.  So I made a discovery.  That's what I am learning today.  OH and yesterday that was my first cheat day.  It wasn't much of a cheat day though because I only ate two meals.  (I was throwing up yesterday morning... I know...TMI)  I had The Rice King (which is the best food in the world) and then I had McDonald's for dinner.  YUMO!  But now I am back to my daily calorie intake.  I think I may go over tonight because Payne is taking me out on a date to get dinner... I like our little nights out.
Catch you up next week on what happens the rest of the weekend!
XOXO
Jordan

Day 410 or Day 4...

So I am four days into this calorie counting bonanza and let me tell you something.  I actually like knowing exactly what I am eating.  I'm portioning things out and really taking in exactly what I eat.  Like yesterday I measured out the correct portion of Jasmine rice I had and the Teriyaki sauce I used and the amount of chicken I needed.  Today was harder.  I ended up skipping breakfast because I was in a rush this morning to get out the door and to where I needed to be.  So I thought how awesome it was that those calories would roll over into lunch.  Then I made lunch and realized that some of the things i SERIOUSLY enjoy are not that good for my calorie bank.  Which ended up leaving dinner with 600 calories and me not so happy about it.  So what should I do you ask... Well in our Cafe at work I went and looked at what they had to offer... Deli meats and cheeses and dressings OH MY!  Or a BBQ Bar.  I went for the BBQ Pork (lets just say I only had two bites *barf*).  I then had my choice of two sides.  I ended up just getting corn because the other options were a smothered baked potato (YUM!) or 4 cheese mac n cheese.  I ate almost all the corn and then snarfed my "organic" sugar cookie... So I guess it wasn't a horrible day.  The thing I find interesting the most is that I am soda "Detoxing".  I went cold turkey Monday morning and it was hard.  I didn't get the cravings really bad until last night and especially today.  I discovered there is a link between me getting stressed out and the amount of soda I drink.  When I am stressed out and there is chaos that I cant control around me I drink soda.  It was my "fix".  I know I'm making it sound like its a drug but in some ways it was my personal drug.  I'm learning how to deal with cravings too.  I love cinnamon candy and Ive discovered that if I eat a few pieces of candy and really enjoy them, instead of just snarfing my way through a bag or box, I satisfy the craving without eating 500 extra calories that weren't necessary.  The other thing I am working on is making meals that are just enough for myself and Payne.  He is doing the same diet with me at home when I cook and its helping a lot.  He also has stopped drinking soda.  I'm really happy I have him on my team.  We both were unhealthy.  Next step is to get us moving.  We spent yesterday afternoon walking around Fashion Place Mall in Murray.  That was a lot of fun because it was just us.  Spending time together.  Being goofy.  We didn't have anywhere to be.  We didn't have any agendas.  We just were there in that moment.  Being best friends and holding hands and walking around talking about whatever was on our minds.  Those moments *ROCK*!  But anyways back to the being healthy business.  Tomorrow is cheat day.  I know not to go over board but I am looking forward to going to The Rice King.  We decided that was going to be my cheat.  WootWoot!  Chinese food!  

Day 407... Or Day 1... Depending on how you look at it.

So today was the beginning of the changes I am making.  It started off with Breakfast.  My favorite meal that can really be enjoyed any time of the day.  I wanted hash browns and sausage.  So what should I do?  Just put it in the pan and hope that I'm not going overboard with the calories?!  That's when I remembered Emily told me she downloaded an app called MyFitnessPal.  I pulled it up on my phone, put in what I wanted to eat, and it gave me the proper portions.  I love this little app.  So while breakfast was cooking I put in what I was planning on having for lunch.  Fried chicken and rice.  I found all the components to my recipe and put them all together which gave me again the proper portions.  I love it!  That left me with almost 1000 calories for snacks and dinner.  When I got to work I found out what they were serving for dinner (because my company has a cool cafe and serves decent food for free).  Pork Chops with wild rice and sauteed green beans.  Uh... Hold the sauteed goodness please I am trying to stay away from butter and oils... and I had fried chicken for lunch.  So I had the pork and a few bites or rice but I wasn't starving.  Its nice to know that if I am watching my portions I don't have to cut everything that is good in the world out of my diet.  Like the saying says... Everything is good... In moderation.

Day 405.... A new Chapter begins....

So I'm going to be frank.  I don't like my body at all.  Not one bit.  So I'm going to change that.  My life is a crazy mess right now and I feel like I've lost all control.  So here we go... I'm gaining control in something only I can control.  My goal is to be back to the size I was my Senior year of High School.  This is a picture from the fall after high school graduation.    

This is me now...

So here is the stats:

At 18 I was a size 14 

At 25 I am a size 20

At 18 I could climb stairs and not feel winded

At 25 I climb a flight of stairs and my heart is racing

At 18 I felt like I could do whatever I wanted 

At 25 I am super stressed about, money, marriage, life, and its all taking its toll...

Here's the plan

Every day I am going to get up and get moving.  I will spend 30 minutes doing some sort of activity that makes my heart race and makes me sweat.  Learn a new dance, climb up and down stairs, walk around the neighborhood, or do yoga for 30 minutes.  I will cut back on my calorie intake throughout the week and allow myself one day to eat whatever I want.  

So this is how it will work.  

Monday through Thursday I will take in no more than 2000 calories.  Friday will be my "whatever I want" day.  Saturday and Sunday will be no more than 2000 calories.  I will be cutting back on Dr Pepper as well saving that JUST for Fridays.  I will also drink at least 128 ounces of water per day.  That's twice the necessary amount required for a human being.  

I will also take 30 minutes out of my day to meditate.  To relax and clear the world from my mind.  Stress can lead to weight gain a list of problems you can have medically.  

Next I will try to go to bed at a reasonable time and wake up at a reasonable time consistently.  That is good for your sleep patterns.  

Lastly I will try to report back to you how I am doing.  On Monday I start this shenanigan and I will post pictures of the progress.  

My End Goal?

I want to be back to a size 14 by my birthday.  

I think that's a reasonable goal.  That's four months.  That's 1 and a half sizes to go down per month.  And then, if I reach my goal, for my birthday I will treat myself to a little shopping spree for some new threads!  

Here goes nothing...

Day 396

Life is life stressfull.  Jack is at the Vet's office right now and he had his teeth cleaned.  So they put him under and while they were cleaning his teeth they found out he has little cuts in his gums where there is a dental disease.  They have to go into his mouth and remove two of his molars and then they let the root of the tooth disintigrate and have it absorbed into the body.  AKA lots of $$$$$$$$$... Okay not that bad... like $250... Were going to do it but its just really hard to have these things come up when were on a strict budget as it is.

This is Jack on a regular day.  He was yawning and  the picture was taken at the exact perfect time.

Me and Adrienne decided to start a small photography business.  Its going to be a lot of fun...

We did our Christmas pictures during conference weekend...Adrienne took these...

This is Adrienne, Ali, Boston, and Sox.  I took this picture.

I took this picture as well.  

We love doing what we do and I cant wait to get things started.

Till next time

XOXO

Jordan

Day 386

SO since the last time we met A LOT has happened!
First things first.  Dillon went into the MTC on September 18th.  He leaves on October 1st (tomorrow!).  The picture below is of him and some other elders at the Provo Temple.

So that's super awesome!
Next thing is Vivint, where I work is throwing a massive party on Friday, October 4th for all of their employees.  And guess whose playing?!  Dont worry... its just the IMAGINE DRAGONS!   No big deal really.
Other than that there's not a lot going on... My cousin and her boy are getting married next Saturday!  I'm doing her hair so you better be prepared for all the pictures of her hair I do.
But until then...
XOXO  ~Jordan

DAY 366!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ladies and Gents, We have reached our one year goal.  And guess what?!?!  I am still in love with doing this blog.  I like it because I can keep a log of my thoughts.  Im not very good at putting pen to paper so this works for me.  I recently just transfered departments at work and I love my new department.  I work in the billing department where we process payments and what not.  I love it because I feel like Im doing more for a company I love.  Take tonight for example.  It was my first time by myself and i was by myself for 3 hours.  I collected over $775 and didnt bat an eye.  This department does so much for my company and I didnt even realize it.  Yes we do deal with alot of upset people but its more than that.  Its about helping the company grow and holding people accountable.  I love it!  Plus it helps that Im now in the corporate office and I get to have lunch with my hubby everyday. 

 

Were also getting ready to send my brother off to the MTC (for those of you who dont know what that is, it stands for the Missionary Training Center) to serve an LDS mission in Cleveland, OH.  Its so crazy to think that MY little brother, who isnt little at all, is an adult now.  Hes all grown up.  It makes me so proud of him. 

 

Paynes mom will be here as well and were looking forward to spending some time with her.  Its been so nice to have his sisters (Ali and Missy) so close.  We both love spending time with them when all our schedules line up. 

 

Payne and I were also talking about starting a weekly game night.  Falling on Sundays because what else do we have to do on a sunday night?  We played games the other night with my twin cousins, Kelli and Kaitlin, and Kelli's boyfriend and we had massive amounts of fun.  This should probably become a weekly thing. 

If youre reading this and you live near Provo and youre interested, Let me know! 

 

But other than that things are going GREAT!  Were finally getting life back in order which, knock on wood, is a fantastic thing. 

Well thats all the updates I have for now!

 

Talk to you later

xoxo

~Jordan

Day 352

Thirteen days left till my years experiment will be over... But dont worry!  Im going to keep updating!  This is fun and its been a great way to stay connected with friends.  (Thats you Emily!)  Im watching Pitch Perfect for the hundredth time and reflecting as usual.  Im happy... two of my sister in laws live in Provo with us now.    My brother is leaving on his mission in like three weeks.  My sister is CRUSHING it at art.  Payne is trying so hard to figure out what his plans are and Im happy with my life.  Ive got great friends and an adorable cat...  So heres a few updated pictures of recent events!

This is Jack and his obsession... He gets up on the bathroom counter and lets the sink drip water on his head 

Youre going to start seeing alot of pics like this... This is the BYU Alumni game...  Missy standing on the right side of the pic in the white tshirt and sweats helping coach and Ali is on the left side of the net KILLING IT!  

My hair has a faint lavender color now... You can KIND OF see it here...

And this is my favorite person in the ENTIRE WORLD!  I love him!

Day 348

Have I ever talked to you about Jack?  Jack is my cat.  Jack is more than a cat... Hes like my little shadow.  When Im home and especially when Im sick he follows me around the house and never leaves my side.  Jack...

This is a pic of Payne and Jack

 This is how Jack sleeps every night

This is my favorite picture of Jack

He is always snuggling up with me when I dont feel good

Snoozing in the afternoon

Hanging out on the rug

He was batting at the camera to make me stop taking pictures

This is Jack spooning with Payne

My second favorite picture of Jack

Snuggling on my lap after a long day of doing Jack stuff

As you can tell this cat is my family... I just thought you should know...

Day 329

We redid our entire apartment.  Moved furniture around and then bought some new things at Ikea.  This first picture is of our living room.  

 We moved the couch around moved the tv and playstation into the living room and then bought two new bookcases.  We also got a new rug and painted an end table that you cant see from this point of view.  

The picture below is of our bedroom.

We moved our bed to infront of the window which freed up alot of space in our room.  We moved our desk to the foot of our bed and put a cool lamp next to it.  You can also see Payne taking a small break while I update the blog.  

The picture below is of Payne and Jack trying to relax.

Anyways I thought I would let you know what we are up to!  Thanks for stopping by!

Day 315... A new project is brewing!!!!!

I have decided to start a new project besides my shirt business because thats going to take some time to get it off the ground.

You can visit the new projects blog at: 

everydayhandsut.blogspot.com

Im not going to tell you what its about... Youre just going to have to find out for yourself!

Day 313

Sorry Ive been gone for so long.  I got this amazing new job and Ive been swamped with the summer season.  As our season is slowly winding down Im discovering that I am having more time to myself and get back to my blog!

But that isnt even the best news!  I finally decided to try my luck at starting a business!  Its really something Im growing more and more passionate about.  This is the logo Im working on.  I keep going back and forth on the lollipops as cross bones... But I do love the missing tooth and the ice cream scoop on the time.  Basically Im designing clothes that are comfy and fun to wear.  I love hoodies, t-shirts, and sweats!

Day 215

My house is almost clean.  Like its been scrubbed, mopped, vacuumed, windexed, cloroxed, and trash take out.  It feels amazing!  The weather here in Provo has been so amazing!  I've opened all the windows and let the breeze do its thing.  I feel like I'm spring cleaning my life as well.  In doing so ive found alot of things that used to make me happy that I gave up when I got married.  I don't know why I gave them up but I think it was because I felt like I had to please everyone else and I thought I needed to fit what everyone else thought I should be.  I gave up the music that made me me.  I'm starting to remember what makes me love me.  Like the music I listen to now is the same as before but its just the newer version.  I ADORE Simple Plan and I stopped listening to them.  Did you know they have like 2 newer albums out?!  Neither did I until I looked them up on iTunes.
So that made me think about every thing else that I "lost" when I got married.  Im not saying Lost in a bad way but when you get married you become a "We" or an "Us".  It takes time to figure out what your role is in the relationship.  ANYWAYS...
I rediscovered my love for band tshirts and comfy jeans.  Flip Flops. Fun summer dresses.  Parties in the park.  Dinner with friends.  Strawberries and salt.  Oreos and Peanut Butter.  Driving with the windows down and the radio off.  The clean smell of spring.  NOT waking up to an alarm.
The list could go on and on but Those are just a few!

Day 207

I hit 200 days!  Look at me do my thang!  Lol... Anyways.  I was thinking today about the past.  The people in it whom I miss and whom I dont miss.  And since I feel like I can tell you anything here it goes... In no particular order... Sean Carr, Mandy Allred, Amber Armstrong, Chelsey Badoni (now Ping), Isaiah Curtis, Katie Roberts, David Koch, Casey Snell, Andrew Jenkins, Donny Hilton, and Jessica Hart.  These people influenced my life in so many different ways and I miss them because they came into my life but never left my heart.  So if you know one of these people or are one of these people or have NO CLUE who these people are Im going to tell you who they are to me and what they mean to me.

Jessica Hart- She was one of my roommates in Provo, UT. She had the heart of a saint. But she did not put up with anyones BS. She was a straight shooter and that was all there was to it. I always knew I could get an honest answer from her and she and I had been through a few similar situations. We bonded over broken hearts and taking our lives back!

Donny Hilton- What oh what to say about Donny. He had the body of a God and was a genius but lacked street smarts. I could always count on Donny for a game of Halo. And I always kicked his trash when we played. Donny also took me fishing in the canyon in Provo. Donny, and his roommates Andrew and Casey, defended my honor when a certain douche bag tried to hurt me. For that I will always appreciate Donny, Casey, and Andrew. Donny also had to borrow a dress from me when he lost a bet. I still have the pictorial evidence.

Andrew Jenkins- Drew was the best. The only thing this boy was capable of making was a bowl of cereal. And because of that he ate at my apartment every day for almost a year straight. Drew was a brother to me.

Casey Snell- Casey was the suave ladies man that could do nothing to make me fall for him. I think thats why all those boys kept me around. I had nothing but Platonic feelings for them. I was unbreakable in their eyes. I had declared to Casey one night after staying up too late watching a sapy chick flick with him that I was NEVER going to fall in love and get married. He thought that was funny. I almost did too. Until my husband showed up. Casey predicted our relationship and was only happy for me to tell him he was right when the time came.

David Koch- My shopping partner in crime. You bought me my m&m necklace that I still have in my jewelry box. You made living at Raintree so much sweeter. And David introduced me to my husband! Thanks David!

Katie Roberts- Katie got me through Hair School. She made me think. She helped me find the goofy dorky girl that was just DYING to get out and dance! Katie was also the person who did my hair for me all through school and she pushed me to try new things.

Isaiah Curtis- There is alot to be said about our friendship. But its just better left unsaid.

Chelsey Ping- Weve been through hell together. And thats what friends should always do. Be there for eachother through everything.

Mandy Allred- Babe you and me have been friends for YEARS. Hell we used to be mistaken for eachother. PEOPLE THOUGHT WE WERE TWINS! I miss you terribly!

Sean Carr- You taught me so much about myself that I dont know if I was ready for it. You are my friend still to this day. You are missed.

Amber Armstrong- Youre my sister! Youre my BFF. Youre the girl who was my friend when the "snob squad" picked on me and threatened me. You werent afraid of standing out from the crowd. Your son is the LUCKIEST little boy to have you as his mom. Amber, I love you and I miss you!

Now to leave you with a little piece of my history in a song...

"Number One"

I saw my boyfriend hanging with this girl that I hate

He didn't have to tell me why last night he was late

I can't believe what you tell me

Your lies have come undone

Now I'm living on the run looking out for number one

I took a ride to the city

Had to get out of this place

I just can't stand the pity

When the tears fall down my face

I used to think it was over

But its only just begun

Now I'm living on the run looking out for number one

One day you'll see me but only when your dreaming

One day you'll say I was the one

I hitched a ride on a Greyhound stashed away on a train

Bought a ticket for the subway

Playin' guitar in the rain

I want to follow Rivers to an island in the sun

Now I'm living on the run looking out for number one

One day you'll see me but only when your dreaming

One day you'll say I was the one

Late at night trying to fight

I just might think about him

Right now I'm feeling fine

I'm better off without him ya!

One day you'll see me but only when your dreaming

One day you'll say I was the one

I know that one day you'll see me

I'll haunt you when your dreaming

One day you'll say I was the one

I'm number one

Day 198...

So at my new job I create new accounts for VIVINT.  I talk on the phone all day to sales reps and techs.  I get really irritated with them and sometimes have to get up from my cozy desk and walk away.  They get so cranky when our programs take too long to load or when I refuse to pass a survey because they lied.  Im over it.  So then the other day Dan, my supervisor said JORDAN Ive got a new job for you.  I was excited because this one was getting old.  Turns our hes making me a team lead AKA I dont have to take phone calls for 90% of my day!  Hooooooray!

In other news... Well... Theres none... :)

Day 188

Look at the world around you.  What do you see?  Want to know what I see?  To the exact left of the key board there's a  BYU notebook and a box of Muddy Bears... Traces left from a late night of studying.  To the right is my favorite Victoria's Secret lotion.  Then on the abstract book case next to that is our eclectic DVD collection and a few nick knacks   Then there's the window that Jack likes to spend his time sleeping in.  Then the ugly chair I couldn't leave DI without buying and the UGLY couch Payne couldn't leave Savers without.  Then there's the "Over the door Organizer" for our shoes that I NEVER seem to put my shoes back on.  (That drives Payne crazy but not as crazy as me NEVER hanging my towel up)  Then there's the kitchen where I cook and Payne cleans.  A deal we made the day we were married.  I would do 90% cooking and 10% dishes if he did 90% dishes and took me out to eat when it was his turn for the 10% cooking.  If you look on our walls you'll see pictures of us from our wedding, the wedding certificates, and random quotes about love.  I think about what life would be without my Payne.  How lonely it would be.  He drives me absolutely insane but THATS WHY I LOVE HIM.  I love you Payne.  I love you more in this moment than I ever thought I could the day we promised eternity.  And it gets bigger everyday...

Day 187

Only 178 more days to go of this experiment. And yet today I find myself staring into darkness. Its not something I willingly talk about but yet I feel the need to. I dont know how to exactly how to come out and say it but you may understand after reading this post.

Today was my day off. It was a day filled with errands, chores, meals to make, and friends to see. But I woke up sick to my stomach. Not really able to pinpoint what was the culprit I stayed in bed while Payne ran to the dollar store to pick up some Saltines and some bleach spray. (To make me feel better and for part of my chores.) Then he was off to work. After that things start to go dark and dreary. You see I never really fully got out of bed today. Didnt take a shower. Still in my pajamas now. Counting the minutes till I can reasonably say Im going to bed. Because tomorrows another day and theres plenty of people out there waiting for me to do my thing so they can do theirs. People depending on me. And because I am a people pleaser I do it. I get up and do the things everyone else wants me to do. Sure Ill work a few extra hours. Sure Ill clean even though Im exhausted. Sure Ill get up two hours early just to make sure I do everything everyone else needs done. Im not a mom but I feel the burdens already. Run people here. Pick up something there. Go to work but worry about the Husband. Did the cat get fed today??

Its exhausting.

I know everyone goes through it. But I'm just letting you know that if you read that Facebook status dont make it about you. It isnt. Its simply stating how I feel about life in general. If I dont answer my phone its because I really don't want to talk to you or listen to you tell me about a disappointment. If I dont text you back right away its because im asleep or not in the mood. If I blow off our plans its because of ME not YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Stop trying to guilt me into everything. I constantly feel belittled...

So I think I'll go to bed now

DAY 175!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Holy cow Batman! Were almost halfway through the year since I started this blog! But I do have to share some pictures I stumbled across...

This one is of Emily and myself. This was taken in 2006 I believe. Shes was my first roommate EVER!

This one is of Me, Amy, and Emily. We had a thing for knee socks back then. This was taken in 2006 as well...

That year was the most insane year because Emily and I went on so many road trips to Idaho. And thats when she became one of my best friends. Now were both old and married. She has a cutie pie little boy who makes me smile! I love spending time with her and her little family. Im crossing my fingers that they will soon be moving back down to Provo!!! Thats also when I met my first Canadian (Amy). Shes the craziest girl I ever lived with! I miss her alot but hope that she is doing well.

Anyways... Things are great here in our world. Payne and I are both working for VIVINT. If you have NO idea what that is heres a link to the website... We love the company and all that they stand for. The catch phrase for all their advertisements is "VIVINT. Live Intelligently" I work in the Account Creations department and Payne works in Service Support. I talk to Sales Reps and Service Technicians all day and he talks to Service Techs and answers emails all day. Okay so thats all I have for right now but things are finally starting to look up again...

Day 169

So Im thinking about alot of things we take for granted. Alot of missed opportunities. So as of April 1st I will be looking for every chance to experience life.

Day 163

Have you ever looked at your life and wondered whats to come?

I was watching The Buried Life last night on netflix and it got me thinking. I need to change a few things in my life to make my dreams possible. That means freeing up my weekends. That means finding a job that is a regular 9-5. That means a job that doesnt physically drain me and emotionally drain me. So here goes nothing... My next chapter in life. WOOHOO

Day... Oh I dont even know anymore....

So its been almost a month since ive posted and that is not what I am all about. So I am here to tell you all about the craziness in my life. Payne quit Olive Garden. Sometimes I want to strangle him but whatever. Theres not alot I can do about that. I have been having the worst time at the salon. All the pain from my shoulder, elbow, and wrist are getting to be too much and so I am looking to find a good office job and work there till the fall. Then high ho high ho its off to school I go. I don't know what to think about any of that right now. Its so much swimming around in my head. The stress of being the only one working at a job that is slowly killing my body is just no fun. Dont get me wrong. I love doing hair and will never truly stop doing it but this time I know that I need the break from it. Thats why I think its time for me to go back to school and get a degree. Then I can own salons and still be part of the industry and not work just behind the chair. So dont worry my cute little friends who are my biggest fans. I will still take care of you out of my house just not in a salon setting.

Which brings me to my next subject. I am so freaking excited for summer. Let me elaborate. Since moving to Utah the weather hasn't been about 40 degrees. EVEN WHEN THE FREAKING SUN IS OUT!!!!! Dont believe me? Heres a little pic to prove Im not crazy... Now mind you that forecast says its going to get warmer... YEAH... We shall see. Plus im also excited for summer because I bought the ultimate summer pass... AKA The Pass Of All Passes. Its a Seven Peaks and other locations party pass to get into anything for an entire year. So on saturday every weekend this summer you will find me floating in the lazy river with sunglasses on. Thats one other thing im looking forward to about a regular 8-5 monday thru friday job. WEEKENDS ARE FREE!!!!!!!!!!! We can actually go places and see our people. The only thing im worried about it Missys graduation. And Dillons graduation. OH GUESS WHAT?!?!

Yeah just thought I should mention that. Okay im over it... See ya!

Day 133

So it's been a little while since I've had the time to sit down and write. Life has been hectic with work, Payne's school, and his work as well. So here goes nothing... I took over managing a salon in Springville and I really like it except for a few hiccups... But that's not something I'm going to air out on the Internet. But the owner I work for is awesome. I like how he really trusts me and let's me run the salon. Missy, Payne's sister, came to visit last week. It was so nice to have her here for a few days. I felt horrible on Sunday because I slipped on the ice in front of our apartment and landed flat on my back. I think I had a minor concussion but I couldn't stand up straight or dress myself alone until yesterday. I'm so thankful for Payne and all he does for me. I haven't done any crafts lately but that's okay. I will soon. I am just getting used to all the changes and everything going on in life. But I do promise I will try harder about posting. I'm sorry. XOXO Jordan

Day 120

I did a lot today...
I cleaned my salons dispense. I cleaned the back room half way. I am about to hire someone new. I'm about to fire someone. Now I'm watching Harriet the Spy. This movie brings back a lot of sad elementary school memories...

Day 113

I've been thinking lately... Which is dangerous... And then I realized something. I'm very sick. I work incredibly hard. Those two should never go together. I love the salon and I enjoy doing hair but its not what I want anymore. Like I've said before I feel like I'm worth more than what some people are willing to pay. Payne is in this crazy intro to entrepreneurship and I've been reading the book that goes along with the class. I feel like I could do a lot more than what I'm doing right now. I'm thinking about setting up my own etsy shop that I can start selling my creations on. Then I can start selling my dresses on there and start "Cinderella's Closet" from there. I want to get to the point where I can work from home and even from bed when I'm not feeling very well (which is a lot lately). I think I may even start a Facebook page for all my creations. I hope it all works out. I need to do something different. Xoxo

Day 111

Today has been a really hard day. I just had this massive revelation while sitting in my car outside of the salon today. I hate working for someone else. I hate working in a place where I'm not getting paid what I'm worth and I don't know what to do about it. I feel like I need to take a risk and go out on my own. And I also want to start my business. I'm sick of the men's hair cuts and all the little kids. I think my job has made me really not like kids. Im sorry I feel like I'm worth more than a $10 haircut. Or a $25 color. I didn't pay $15,000 to go to school to stay at this level. I'm at a point in my life where it's time for me to make what I'm worth. Plus I hate working till 8pm. Ugh... What oh what to do...

Day 100! Resolutions and Bucket Lists

Hey Look at that! 100 Days of keeping up with something...

So today I want to talk about "Resolutions"... A resolution is a "firm decision to do or to not do something". OR "A formal expression of opinion or intention agreed on by a legislative body, committee, or other formal meeting, typically after taking..."

Usually around this time of the year people are making resolutions about what theyre going to do. Most consist of loosing weight, eating healthier, and taking more "me" time. And by about April weve broken our resolutions. Why do we do that to ourselves? So this year I didnt make any resolutions. *Shock and Awe* I made a Bucket List of things I want to do this year. And I thought I would share them with my sweet little followers. Hoping to inspire you to do your own.

BUCKET LIST 2013

*See a Jazz game

*Go to a Real Soccer Game

*Go to Chicago (see Paynes uncle and family)

*Go to North Carolina (See Paynes parents)

*Go to California (See Missy Graduate)

*See Dillon graduate

*See Dillon go on his mission

*Play a game of Black Jack in Las Vegas

*Take a last minute getaway

*Do a semester of college

*See the Atlantic Ocean

*Drop three clothing sizes

*Pay off all credit card debt

*Spend and entire day shopping worry free

*Have an epic 25th birthday

*Dinner at "The Roof"

*Try Duck

*Learn to cook a foreign dish

*Throw a swanky party

*Get a passport

*Buy something vintage

*Finish all my projects

*Visit a historical sight outside of the Four Corners

*Spend a day at a spa being pampered

Some of those I know I can put together and that would be awesome. And heres the thing, If I dont do them all this year that OK. Because I can put them on the top of next years bucket list. So tell me... What is on your bucket list?

Day 98... New Years Day

What are you doing today? Im doing laundry,vaccuming, scrubbing the bathroom, taking out the trash and all around being a housewife. I went and picked up a few groceries today before coming home to all my work. I just vacumed the living room and Jack about fell off the chair. He was dead asleep and our vaccum is quiet, but i got going and didnt know he was on the chair till i whipped it around to move it out of the way. He jumped like two feet in the air and bolted. Poor guy. I had to coax him out with his treats. Now hes back in the chair fast asleep.

But anyways Im here to share the most delicious Pot Roast I have ever had the pleasure eating. Its called the Mississippi Pot Roast. What you need is 1 Pot Roast, 1 Packet of Ranch dressing Powder, 1 Packet of Au Jus Powder, and 1 Stick of butter. Place the Roast in your favorite CrocPot. Sprinkle the entire packet of ranch on top. Then sprinkle the entire packet of Au Jus on top of that. Then place the stick of butter on the middle of the roast. Cook on low for 6-8 hours. I love this because you do not use any water. And its a southern recipe so you know its going to be freaking amazing. This is what it should look like when you put the lid on.